i wonder, who am i to deserve all these goodness from God?
many times, when things dun go well, its so tough for me to give thanks.
but yes, come to tik abt it... did God short change me?


i remember asking God for converts.
and when God gave me converts... we rejoice!
ok so as all of us noe that converting is jus the begining...
and when they are so tough to be taken care of..
we complained.
God i repent =(


isnt that weird?
if we are so afraid of challenges, den y ask God for converts in e first place?
arent we the one that ask God for converts?
den y complain when we are given not 1 but 3?
oh well, stupid sinful nature.


yeah, i seriously agree that they are a bunch of tough ppl.
sometimes, i reali feel like screaming at them.
or even, heck care them.
but, isnt that stupid?
isnt that me who ask God for them to join the kingdom of light ?
not that i want them to remain lidat.
but yes, its a duh for NBs to behave this way.
as a spiritual "mother" extra miles is a must.
have u seen a mother being angry when the baby is crying or making a mess in her life?
no, i dun tik so.
when a mother decide to give birth to that baby, she shoud noe that taking care of a baby is more den feeding him / her milk daily.
its definelty more den that mann.


God, u are so faithful.
u gave us 3 NBs.
opps more den that, 7 NBs !
no more complains.
cos this is wat i asked for.
u put all these NBs under us, u have in mind that we can handle.
so yes God, we will do our best =)


who am i that God gave me all these?
who am i that the king of kings, the lord of lords that call me his beloved?
am i dumb or am i an idiot not to appreciate it & to hurt him over & over again.
am i stupid or no-brain for letting the tot of giving up enter my mind?
oh my God, i am so blessed.
He calls me His beloved.
i am a nobody, & he calls me his beloved.
how amazing is that?
how "un-real" is that?
but yea, its not a fairy tale..
is even more den a prince falling in love with cinderalla.
its even more amazing den that.